Finally, it's DONE!

Finished my thesis today.
Can't thank God enough for this!
And also thanks for all the dearest friends for each support and prayer!

Another Love!

Lovin These

Eric Elms Vans at Bows & Arrows

bowsandarrowsberkeley.com

Full-Balanced

I feel happy today.
Feel very productive.

Starting today with regular praying time.
Dropping my sisters to their schools.
Doing my routine morning exercise.

Helping my coordinator for Media & Communication department arranging an interview for our church's monthly magazine.

Off to Hardrock FM, interviewing my informants for my thesis.

Researching some materials for one of my articles in nu:B's August issue.

Helping my coordinator for Multimedia department finding a VJ to do the presenting on Monday.

Then having a lil meeting with my friend and my pastor for this event on our youth community next month.

Going home, then getting ready to attend one of my too many groundcousins' birthday with the whole family.

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Collegiate life, work, ministries, and family.
I've managed it all really well today.

Life feels good and effective when you can live it in a full-balanced way.

We all have the same 24 hours per day.
But it's up to us whether we want to use it effectively or not.

Monument and Melodies

You make me happy, you magnify my better half.
You make me certain, tho all I have today is your photograph.

- Incubus -


I love the lyric, dunno why.
Remind me to good old days, with all the butterfly in the stomach feeling.

I was a kid back then.
Young and free.
With lil things to worry about.
I was brave.

I am now growing.
Full of consideration.

I still remember the airport.
Starbucks.
Even the stupid Friendster and Myspace.

Dunno why do I type this at night.
But it feels good reminiscing to those old feelings.
And you're like far away now.

Glad that we're still friends.

And hey no, the lyrics above are not for you.
I just love it, it has nothing to do with you.
Don't get me wrong, people.

My Deepest Condolence (again)

Today's headline is quite devastating.

Explosions at Ritz Carlton and JW Marriot, Mega Kuningan.

Sigh.

Again???

My deepest condolence for all the victims and families.

Let's pray for this nation...

My Deepest Condolence

I don't really have much things to do, when I was still in the hospital.
Watching TV is one of the very limited options I have.

One afternoon during lunch, I watched some news program.
And of em made me gasp.

They delivered the fact that Indonesia is one of the countries with biggest or largest porn-downloading activity.
In fact, we're sitting at number SEVEN throughout the world's rank.

Now that is really pathetic for me. But hey, they're not finished yet!

They interviewed a teenager, maybe around 13tth-14th years old.
They asked, "Why do you like to download porn movie into your mobile?"
The kid replied, "So that I can watch it during my spare times. It's better, rather than doing nothing."

I was so urgghhhh.. speechless!

Hello, spare times?? We're talking about spare times!
You can choose so many useful activities during your spare times, but why did he choose that??

And what's worse is, they can get all the videos like very easy and cheap!
Rp 1,000 for each movie!

Can you imagine if every teenager out there are doing this?
It will destroy their mind.
Blocking their journey of fulfilling God's purpose in their life.
It's good if one day they could eventually stop doing it, but what if they got stucked with it for the rest of their life.
Can you see the long-term impact?
Destroying their marriage, their self-image, and more over, they will pass it to the next generation.

These kids are our future leaders.
And we adult,are busy corrupting their mind with unnecessary things, because we need money?
Sounds so selfish, eh?
Why don't we let them consume positive things that could support and prepare them to be great in their future.

Ok, I'm not being fake or naive here.
I know how it feels to watch porn, it surely feels good, it gives you unforgettable pleasant feeling.
I once was addicted to it.

But hey, there are more precious things that you can do other than just satisfying your temporary needs.

Sigh.

Sick Sick Sick!!

This is the result of being very busy lately.



For the first time in my life finally I got hospitalized for almost three days.
I'm home now thanks God.
But I still have to take a good rest for the next three days.

Thesis, nu:B, ministries.. are all in PAUSE. :(

Anyway thanks dear friends for those who came visiting me, all the tweets, e-mails, texts, phones.. I can't mention the names one by one, but you know who you are guys.

Have you?

Have you cried because you want something really bad, yet you have no idea how to get it??
I have.

I just did.

This thing that I've been wanting since last year, finally triggered my tears to burst out.

Gotta put a lot of faith and hope onto this one.

I think this could be a real lifetime testimony, if I could ever get this one thing. (ironically laughing!)

So yeah, we'll see.

What is the best gift??

Thank God for the national election day.
I could stay at home all day and write.

This is my third post today.
Hope you don't mind.
Well this is my blog anyway, you don't have a choice, do you? Haha.

I wanna ask you a question, keep the answer to yourself.
What is the best gift that you can give to others?

Money?
Food?
Clothes?
Anything expensive?

If you ask me, my answer would be TIME.

Time is a very precious commodity in life.
You can not buy it.
You just simply have it. It's a gift from God.
You can not sell it.
You can only give it, by making a decision.

We all have the same 24 hours a day.
So there is no such thing like, "Your time is more flexible than me!"
No, we've been given the same amount of hours a day.
It's just how you manage it that would make the difference.

I have been busy lately.
But I decided to manage my time really well, so that I could spare it to others who needs it.

To friends who needs me to listen to their stories. Maybe only for 10 minutes, but it's something huge for them. I could choose not to response to their messages, or not to answer their phones, right?

To my company who needs me to be responsible. Today is holiday, but I decided to work from home. My friend even said, but this is HOLIDAY!!

To my parents who needs me to do all the house chores, to go and buy them lunch. I could choose not to do what they want using this excuse that I am working from home, but I decided not to.

Even to me, my future. I give my time to this thesis-thingy, but I still spare my self a ME time, to read books, watch TV series, listen to musics, updates this blog, prepare my own regular healthy breakfast every morning. I could choose just to sleep all day, but that won't be wise.

And the most important, to God. Just a simple quiet intimate time in the morning to greet and meet Him. To say thanks to Him for everything. I could choose not to do that, with the excuse that I am still sleepy, that God will understand me.

I'm not trying to brag here.
But hey, if I could do that.
You can do that too.

I call it investing.
Invest your times at the right soil.
You can make a lot of excuses of being busy whatsoever.
But hey, as I said before, we all have the same amount of time.
It's just take our decision to use it wisely.
To give it wholeheartedly those who are important for you.
To the important areas in your life.
To God.

So stop making excuses!
Manage and use your time wisely, will ya!

Busy Busy Busy!!!

Seriously.
July is a tough month for me!!

I have to manage all my hectic schedule, and live it in balance.

Work, with all the deadline, articles, responsibilities.
Thesis!! I have to finished the last two chapters in three weeks!
Short-semester in August.
And of course my ministry.

I have to guard my heart carefully.

A lot of people seems enjoying this July with vacation, going abroad, out of town, take a day off, shopping.
Even my own parents and sisters has left and gonna leave me soon for holiday trip.
And I have to stuck here with all of these.

But hey, I should be grateful!

A lot of responsibilities are in my hands.
Big responsibility.
Thank God, I still have to work, I still can go to college and go through this thesis-making thingy.

This afternoon, when I watched the TV, I found the latest update about the Lapindo's victims.
You know this thing that happened in Surabaya.
A lot of people, 8200 people, lost their houses.
They have to move to a camp, and live in a 6x3 m room!
They don't have perfect sanitation, nor active income, nor electricity, nor appropriate foods.
They lost everything!
Their lives were turned upside down, and they have to deal with it.
My problem is nothing compared to them.

Lessons learned.


I should be grateful.

You too should be grateful.

If you think your life is a complete mess. Think thrice!
If you think people treat you unfairly. Think thrice!
Those Lapindo's victims were forced to live under that circumstance because of a human error.
Because a person, or a party made a terrible mistake, and they have to received the impact.
Now, is that fair enough??

Ok, I'm gonna leave it at that.
It is now a lil bit out of topic.

So anyway, back to my busy life.
I really need your prayer support guys.
I might look like I don't have any problems, from the outside.
But seriously, I am quite stress and pressured on the inside.

Hmm.. I dunno how to close this article.
So, toodles! :D

ps. Sorry for Laras, Christine and Debora, who's been asking me to go out and have a chat with them.

It's Hot, NOT!

"Go there," He commanded.
"It's hot over there, I don't want my skin to get hurt," I stubbornly refused.

"It is not that hot, trust Me," He tried to convince me.
"Come on, from where I am standing right now, I can't see any comfort in there," I replied.

"But I want you to go there. You don't have any reason to be worry, because you know, I am a faithful One. I will never want to see you get hurt, not for once. Even if it hurts for you some times, it is part of My bigger plan."

I could never win arguing with this Man.
So halfheartedly I moved my feet.
Put it on the very hot road.
It is HOT!
I wanted to yell, but I shut my mouth off.

Slowly, I walked into the hotness journey.
The most painful one, I think.

"Keep on walking, remember you have Me, so no worries," He whispered.

It hurts so much, I swear.
I didn't think I can survive this.
But I have to obey, I have to grow this trust.
So I kept on walking.

And then, along the road.
A huge cloud came over, covering the sun.
And a wind blew softly, stroking my cheek.

Comfort was all around me, out of sudden.
I looked back, He smiled.

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The key of going through trial is simply by obeying and putting our trust in God.
It might seems hurtful at the very first sight.
But hey, He sees, He knows, He'll rewards your endurance eventually.

We often think God is late, but actually He is preparing something bigger for us. -JR-

YouthCamp 2009, "Bolder, Better, Stronger"

Had a blastin moment from June 29th until July 1st @ D'Agape Residence, Puncak.
I was there MC-ing for YouthCamp, an annual event for JPCC's Youth, Oxygen and TAG (Totally Awesome Generation).

So here are some pics.



With beloved Blenders: Ai Devi, Momski Astrid, Huacelei Wfu, Jupri, Grumpy, Rethatch, Me.



Jeff, Elbert, Tya, Me and Mon2. I like this pict, but Jeff ruining it by trying so hard to look cute hahaha.



It's hard to pretend like we don't know that we are being captured.



Switching expression. Geeky to grumpy, vice versa. Lol.



We're tall but yeah we're undeniably cute. Hahaha.



With my three days partner, Mon2. So sad, she is now back to Oz.



Dinner time.



During praise & worship nite. Captured by Wendy Kurniawan!

Extended thought...

Pardon me the deep-thinker.
As I re-read my previous post.
I stated clearly there, that I love this friendship I'm having right now.

I bet you too love the friendship that you are having right now.

But, would you still love it, when the clashes happen?
When your friend simply fail your trust, accidentally or intentionally.
Would you still love it?
Or would you not?

Well, here is a simple lesson that I've learned for years, through out some friendships that I've built in the past.

No matter how close you are with your friends.
There will always time, when your friends eventually failing your trust.
When your friends eventually disappointing you.

Do you know why?
Because they are merely human, just like us.
We could never be perfect.
We could always try our best.
But we could never be perfect.
We could never satisfy or meet other people's needs all the time.

That's the art of friendship, or any other form of relationship.
The art of acceptance.
For what is worth.

Overwhelmed :)

Hera and Elbert just dropped by to my house, bringing me some food, and a melting ice cream.

Totally overwhelmed with their action.

I was at home, with no food. And I told Hera, that I'm quite hungry.
A few hours later, she called, making sure whether I have had my dinner or not.
Then she said she wanna come to my house, buying me some food.

And yes, she did.
She and Elbert, or shud I say, Mr. Hot Grumpy (LOL), came to my house and actually brought some foods.
I was about to lock the gate, when they came.

It's not about the food.
But it's about the intention, the sincere attitude of caring about your friends, and actually put it into actions.

The sincerity of taking and accompanying your friend, to a quite far place, just to help him finish his business.
The sincerity of seeing your friends' needs.
The sincerity of dropping by to your friend's house late at night just to give him some food. Haha.

I love this friendship.

Not only with them, but also with some of my other friends.
Grateful for having these kind of friends who are able to buzz me in BBM only to say, "Why? What happened?" after I posted something on Twitter.
Who are able to directmessage me only to give me encouragement.
Who are able to simply reply, "Yes, you can!"
Who are able to make you laugh, until your migraine suddenly gone.

I simply love this friendship.

Therefore, I am overwhelmed.




ps: Hera, you're the hero tonight. Accompanying grumpy, buying me foods. God bless your heart hahaha. Thanks for the kindness, but ummm.. that wont stop me and grumpy from giving you hard times. Hahaha.

being alone doesnt always feel good

i am a loner.

hmm.. not really
i am now a people person

i can stand listening to people's stories for hours

i am willing to meet new people

i am grateful for every new person that i met

i am expanding my horizon

i am seeing way beyond the facade

somehow, the anti-social has slowly fade.



i spent some time alone today at Starbucks, DjakTer.

sitting in the corner

with the grande caramel java chip and blueberry cheese cake

tasty

quiet

alone

but there are so much thoughts in my mind that i wanna share to somebody

i have my own blackberry

but that's just not enough

that got me thinking

it is TRUE that having a lot of money, having the coolest gadget, eating the most delicious dessert simply doesn't have a meaning, if you don't have someone to share your feeling, your thoughts

so be grateful with any relationship that you are having right now

those people are there in your life, not by accident, but by a purpose, whatever the purpose is

nurture it, let it grow, you'll love to sow what you reap

your treasures are in your relationships