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Sweet Daddy.

My Dad is funny but sweet.

This morning on his way to office, he passed this fast food restaurant where he used to take me when I was a kid.

He called mom and asked, "Dya think Henry wud like to go there again with me?"
My mom replied, "He's not a kid anymore, take him somewhere else!"

I laughed.

I don't know what's inside my dad's mind. Maybe he wants me to re-memorize my childhood time that I spent with him, which is a very rare and precious moment now, since I am now a very busy person.

Parents sometimes forget that their kids are growing up.
They will always see you as their lil boys, lil girls.

Anyhow, i love my parents.

Be grateful for yours!

I knew it...

See I knew it.
You teach me periodically, gradually.
There's always time of letting go to receive something new, something bigger, the zero but in the higher level.

And yes I'm grateful for that.
Now I can see it, the why behind the what.
I am so ready walking in this new level.

Guide me please.
Give me wisdom and understanding.

Driving Lesson

Yeah, I just had my very first driving lesson this morning.
Buat kalian udah mati-matian nanya, "Kapan sih lo mau belajar nyetir?" Mungkin sekarang bisa bersorak gembira “Hallelujah!” (LOL)

During my driving-lesson, ada beberapa pelajaran penting yang gw dapet, yang cukup applicable and connect with real life.


1. Prosedur Keamanan.

This might a very basic and simple thing yang kadang dilupain. Lock your door and put on your seat belt. The point is preparation and equipping yourself before you start the journey, from any damage that might happen during your journey.

In real life, we have a a lot of different cars, relationship, work, ministry, college, anything.. sebelum kita mengendarai mobil-mobil tersebut, kita harus make sure, bahwa keamanan kita terjamin. We have to prepare all the simple basic safety tools yang diperlukan. Kadang, udah kunci pintu dan udah pake seat belt aja masih bisa ketimpa musibah.


2. Know what you want.

Poin kedua yang gw dapet adalah make sure bahwa diri kalian nyaman dulu. Atur kursinya supaya jarak kaki ke rem, gas, kopling nyaman, enggak kesempitan. Posisi punggung jok, disesuaikan dengan kenyamanan kita. Posisi spion diatur sesuai pandangan kita.

In real life, make sure, bahwa kita tahu banget apa yang kita mau. Kita udah tau, oh jok gw yang enak seperti ini posisinya, kaca spion yang pas tuh segini posisinya buat gw. Buat diri kita nyaman, jangan sampe di tengah jalan complain, aduh kok ini gini sih, aduh kok kaca spionnya enggak bener, sih.

Hey, no one’s to blame, kalian sendiri yang harusnya tau apa yang lo mau, dan adjust semuanya itu sesuai dengan apa yang kalian butuhkan. Ukuran jok kalian beda sama ukuran jok orang lain.


3. Manual or matic?

Waktu mau belajar, gw kepengennya belajar matic langsung, karena mobil di rumah matic. Tapi banyak banget yang bilang, you have to learn dari manual dulu, emang lebih susah, tapi that’s the point. Kalau belajar dari matic, you don’t really learn how to master the car.

Poinnya, kadang kita mau dalam ngelewatin suatu proses, suatu journey, menggunakan hal-hal yang terlihat gampang. Enggak ribet, enggak kompleks. We don’t want to do the hard things. Padahal, if we can master the hard things first, the rest of it will follow.


4. U-Turn.

Baru belajar pertama kali, guru nyetir gw langsung ngajarin U-Turn. Bukan soal ganti gigi, bukan soal belok kiri belok kanan, atau how to keep your car steady. Menurut guru nyetir gw, U-Turn salah satu hal penting yang harus gw kuasai dulu.

Just like in real life, kita harus tau dulu gimana caranya U-Turn. So kalo pun kita salah jalan, kita enggak akan nemuin kesusahan untuk secepatnya putar balik. Doing the U-Turn is pretty hard for an amateur like me. Gw musti ulang terus berkali-kali sampai bener-bener bisa.

In real life, we got to practice our U-Turn over and over again. Be it, doing our daily devotional, reading the bible, keeping our regular prayer time, hangout with the right community, attending DATE and church, equipping ourself with seminars. Those are our way of U-Turn, so everytime we know that we are heading to the wrong way, kita bisa langsung U-Turn dengan gampangnya, karena kita udah terbiasa dan lancar untuk U-Turn.


5. The higher the level, the harder the lesson.

Seriously, buat gw yang baru pertama kali belajar, nyetir itu ternyata susah banget. Musti bisa imbangin kaki kanan dan kiri dengan semua teman-teman kecil di bawah sana, si kopling, gas dan rem, mata musti aware sama tiga spion yang, tangan sama kaki musti sinkron waktu ganti gigi. Ughhh. Itu semua baru dilakuin di tempat yang sepi dan kosong. Seiring berjalannya waktu, guru gw akan bawa gw ke tempat yang lebih sulit, yang ramai, yang banyak mobil.

In real life, that’s simply what happen. Kalo kita mau naik kelas, kita musti lulus ujiannya dulu, seberapa pun susahnya ujian itu.


6. Belajar Cuek.

Pas belajar nyetir, ada orang-orang di luar mobil yang lagi duduk-duduk dan mungkin ngeliatin gw terus mikir, ini mobil aneh banget, muter-muter terus, ngapain sih. Mereka ga tau, mereka yang nonton ga tau apa yang lagi kita lakukan. Kita lagi belajar, biarpun dari luar kesannya enggak jelas atau bloon, we shudnt bother, karena mereka enggak tau.

Coba aplikasiin itu in real life, your life are gonna be way simpler than before. Enggak pusing mikirin kata orang-orang sok tau di luar sana. Yang lo dengerin cuma kata navigator lo aja, guru nyetir lo, in real life, it’s God, it’s Holy Spirit.



So that’s all kali ya, doakeuunnn lancar belajarnya.. supaya gw enggak repotin kalian terus kalo ke mana-mana hahaha.

break it

it's happening again.
every year, there is this one important thing that i have to let go.
in order to achieve something bigger.

higher level, harder test.

ive passed all the tests before.
i shall pass this one too.

break my heart for what breaks Yours.

whatever happen, my focus is You, and the people.

....

Something is not right.
There is something wrong with this heart.

The enemy knows very well, which button to press.

The ghost of the past strikes back.

The biggest fear, rejection.

I'm guarding my heart diligently.

Partly Cloudy - Disney Pixar Short Movie

A great short movie from Disney and Pixar as the opening from the movie, UP.
Such a simple story with a deep meaning.

What do you see from the dark cloud whose job is to create wild animals?
Nothing wrong with that actually.
Without the dark cloud, the ecosystem won't run in balance.
He is creating some of the important creatures in the highest level of the food chains.

He contributes something that is essential.
That is his responsibility.
But he keeps on comparing his creation with the other clouds who create cute and harmless creatures.
He wants to do what his friends can do.
And forgetting the fact, that his responsibility is not less important than his friends'.

He looks down on his own ability.

Some of us are just like the dark cloud.
We look down on whatever it is that being given into our hands, because we simply think that it is not that important, comparing what is being given to others' hands.

Be grateful for whatever it is that is in your hands.

That's the first lesson I learned.
The second is about the bird.

He understands that his friend, the dark cloud, is having a big responsibility.
Even though it's also hard for him to be a very supportive friend.
He has the choice to leave the dark cloud alone, but he stays.
His job is to stay loyal to him.
Supporting him.

Be grateful for those friends who stay loyal to you.
Who understand you, and able to make you see the best of you, when you can't.
Who is able to stick by you no matter what.

So love your responsibility.
And keep those friends who are able to support you no matter what.

Letting Go = Going Up

I watched "UP" today with friends.
And here is what I learned from that movie.

Remember the scene where Carl and Russell fight the thunder storm to protect the flying house?
Ok for those of you who haven't watch this move, just skip this question already.
When the house got sucked into the thunder storm, Carl who was trying so hard to "drive" the house out of it, got distracted by running here and there, only to protect all his wife's memorabilia.

He's busy saving those furnitures.

I remember saying this, "Oh man, forget about those furnitures, they are nothing compared to your own safety, your wife is dead already, just let it go."

And remember the scene where Carl wants to go and safe Russell, but he couldn't, because he lost some of the balloons, which puts more weight back to the house. It won't fly. It won't go up.

Then, Carl throws away a chair. Then he smiles. It's like he's finally getting the solution of his problem. And yes, the solution is to throw out as many furnitures as possible.

Then it works! The house is flying back up to the sky.

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As humans, sometimes we got stuck with our past.
We hold onto it very tight while we know, it's actually the time for us to let it go.
It becomes a burden.
It becomes a problem.
It even brings danger to our life.
Just like Carl, he's busy protecting all the memories that he's got left from his wife, and put his own life, and others (Russell), in danger.

Remember, we could also bring harms to other people, if we are not letting it go.

And just like Carl,
The solution is to throw out all the unnecessary things out from our mind, our heart, our life.
When we "clean it up", our "house" is working back properly.
It flies.
It goes up.

So whatever it is that you are holding on right now, while you know you are supposed to throw it out since centuries ago, just let it go now.

Your life will go up.

Been a while

It's been a while since I posted some of my friends' pict here.




So meet em.
Yeah, the left one is grumpy.
The middle one, finally have a picture with her, my partner in crime, Yolanda, the girl with creative ideas, who's been such a help for me in doing some projects together for our youth service.

I'm in LOVE

Your love is above all that I can say.

And I'm falling even deeper into the arms of love.

I'm totally in love.

Seriously

Seriously.

Yeah, seriously.

Nothin beats the feeling of having your friends saying thanks to you, for simply being there for them, and for being part of their journey.

I mean it.

Seriously.